Thinking about this:

You know when you wake up after having a peculiar dream?

Well, I did today.

Something about someone who said some things.

Why are minds so obsessed?

I deactivated Instagram and Facebook today.
Didnt even finish the project I was working.
Woke up with a lot of emotions.
Read about an old friend.

Almost cried.
Didn’t.

Neutral Ground

i have a vision of a place where nothing is everything, and everything exists.

Neutral ground I’m coming for ya.

A place where no one clings to their past

Forlorn

Come home.

Stop.

Go away.

Stop.

Come back.

Stop.

No.

NO.

NO!


Don’t sign my name for me.
Dripping.
Wet.
Windowpanes.


It’s the people who need friends who don’t have them.


Everyone really does need a friend.

A good friend.

is that why our hearts break?

When we feel forlorn?


It’s my secret place.
I come here when I’m sad.

DIMITAR NENOV

Reflections

As I attend to my second semester at the U as a DMA student, I have learned much about myself.

Reflection is an interesting concept.  In many instances, we commute, digest, and communicate much better after a moment of reflection. 

In one the courses I take here at the U, we are encouraged to write a weekly reflection on the past curriculum/class content.  This assignment has proven fairly easy, as I complete these page reflections quite effortlessly. 

There's something about letting your thoughts solidify into words and sentences.  - Your brain seems to take the ideas floating through your mind and form them compactly into solid blocks of information and knowledge.

So what have I learned thus far?

I've learned that procrastination is the root of failure.  - When we procrastinate, we cause a chain reaction of mistakes that lead to increasingly bigger and bigger mistakes.

Organization is key.  - When we keep a scheduled calendar and write things down, we tend to get more done.  This has required a lot of self-control on my part.

Be genuine and stay in your lane. - No matter what, stay true to your values, your principles, and don't try fitting in so much! - There is nothing in the world that is worth compromising your values and standards, and the people who belong in your life with respect this.

Stop worrying about what others think.  - It's extremely easy to overthink things.  This is a work in progress for me.  I think TOO much, and sometimes I get carried away with thoughts that are simply not true.

Life can be overwhelming, and sometimes you feel like you're at the very bottom of its spectrum, but there is always much to be learned from optimism, so stay optimistic, and don't forget to reflect.

Listen

listen

I don’t want to hear about your accomplishments.

I don’t want your list of dids and dones.

I don’t care for the gold you made,

The price you’ve paid.


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I don’t want your plastered mask so carefully set.

I don’t want the humble brag you meticulously let.

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Don’t fill my life with all that noise.

We’re all just growing girls and boys.


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We need some peace — simplicity.

So cool it down. That’s my one just plea.


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My Piano Genealogy

Ludwig Van Beethoven

Carl Czerny

Arthur Schnabel

Theodore Leschetizky

Leon Fleischer

Irene Peery-Fox

Verina Chen

Code

Remember when we used to speak in code?

When we were young and were too shy to communicate like the rest of the world -

I loved you then. I love you now. 

Love isn’t black and white like in movies. 

It’s complicated, and sometimes you can’t help but sympathize with both sides - also like in the movies. 

There was a typo in the last posts. It was a big one. 

So tonight I can’t seem to get to sleep. 

Mellow people are my favorite.