Well, today I competed against 6 other national pianists.
Unfortunately, I didn't even place!
I'm human... (OK, call me a baby).
I cried until my head started throbbing...
But I really have nothing to be ashamed of.
What really matters is that I changed peoples' lives. Many thanked me for my performance and said it was the highlight of their night. Isn't that what performing is for? I refuse to become a machine, a rigid CD player. This is me... I worked my hardest, I did my best, and I am going to keep on going.
This IS life. It's about picking yourself up when you fall.
I'm taking what I learned this year for another.
I'm never giving up, no matter the criticisms of others, no matter how hurtful.
I need to work on my technique and sound. I can do it.
Regardless, I've learned so much.
.... and now, I'm going to wipe my tears and get a hold of myself. :)
There's always another year.
I just need to keep trying.